Kevin's Kidney & me

It's happened again, another month has passed... eight months since the transplant and other than the fact that I'm gaining weight and going bald I have very little going down on the kidney front. That being said, it is approaching the time I need to start thinking about reaching out to the family who lost a loved one and whose loss led to my gain of a nicely functioning kidney. But I'm not sure what to say. That first month or two was very emotional for me. Thinking about it in more than abstract terms would always overwhelm me and could even bring tears to my eyes. These days I'm more in control of that, which is probably a good thing but, means I'm less capable of writing a full throated emotional letter and I hate feigning emotion. So I guess I need to sit with myself and really dig deep for some kind of memory of those first few weeks when this was all new and even a little frightening. These days its all routine, maybe too routine. Too routine? Is my life ...

So there are a few open ends I need to tie up from my previous two posts. In Agassiz Banana I mentioned some health concerns and an anxiety regarding the health of my kidney. I mentioned these concerns to my doctor and she explained that the results that had suddenly appeared a couple of months ago were simply the result of a different person running the tests. In other words, any two people can interpret the request for a battery of tests to mean two slightly different things, one focusing on these twelve important factors and another just doing the full array of seventeen. Once the person who ran the full array did that it added the categories into my prior test results, all of which I can see comparatively side by side on my computer screen. So to me it appeared as if some new information suddenly appeared and it sounded like warning signs. Once that mode entered into my brain I believe I became hyper aware of anything and everything that seemed unusual and I exaggerated into more...